Thinking.......

Lately I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life. Things I need: to do, work on, move past, pray about, etc. I know I have said before I wanted this blog to be about everything and not just the great aspects of my life. And believe me there are a ton of GREAT aspects to my life. I have a wonderful family, great group of friends, reliable job (which is rare these days), roof over my head and food in my pantry.....what more could a girl want? So here goes a little bit about everything.

I was reading a blog today that really made me think. I take life for granted way to often. I spend so much time worrying about things I can't control and things I should have done. I should spend more time in the moment instead of worrying about the moment.  No one is guaranteed tomorrow. Yes, i've thought about this before but reading this blog about someone I know and her pregnancy complications just gets me thinking. I should spend more time playing that little farm game Grant likes instead of cleaning the house. I should hold Bryce and cuddle more instead of playing on the computer or whatever it is that is keeping me from that extra time with him. I should also make more time with the hubby. Life in our marriage is just as precious and not guaranteed.

Most importantly, I think I need to spend more time with my lord. Our family is a church going family. I volunteer at our church and we read Bible stories to Grant. I pray and thank the Lord for the blessing I have in my life. However,  I do believe that I need work on my relationship with the Lord. I think I need to make time to read my Bible. A few weeks ago, Andrew came home from work and mentioned us starting a Bible study together. I thought it was a very good idea. I was actually a little surprised this was something he wanted to do. But of course, we got busy and haven't started it yet. Maybe it is the Devil working on us. This is something that has been laid on my heart but once again overlooked. I was not brought up in church and talking openly about the Lord outside of church is still hard for me. Some of you may not understand that, but it is another thing I need to work on. I know in my heart where I am in my walk and where I would like to be. I also know that I am a sinner and will continue to be a sinner throughout this process. I have hope that this journey will improve my parenting, my marriage, and my friendships. I know putting the Lord first is important and I struggle with it most days. I know I will not always understand why things happen but that my Lord has a greater plan, far better then any plan of mine.